Ok, I think it’s safe to say I established my present age in numerous posts before and see no need to continuously repeat it. But I with a friend on Monday night who asked me about the list in my head of what I wanted to do before I’m 30. Not things I wanted to achieve, mind. Just do. And besides a couple of things, I came out blank. Me? The queen of list making couldn’t figure out what I wanted to do before the year was out. I gazed and gazed and gazed at Lulu trying to type something on her for the last 3 days. To make that list and post it here. Nothing came to me. So instead of trying to think it out, I though I’d start to type this post and see where it takes me.
I’m wondering if it’s that I’ve lost my mojo or jinthu so to speak that could think up a million kinky or adventurous things I wanted to do in a nanosecond. So why am I drawing a blank now. As we grow older and more jaded are we meant to lose those the few nicer things about ourselves as well? The things which never came into the equation when you needed to shave off the ugly, pick up the remains and move on? These things were meant to be constants. Like my muse. She just upped and took off a few months ago and I’m wondering what it is I have to do to get her to come back.
I woke up in the heart of Colombo on Tuesday morning at the crack of dawn because I was hanging with a friend. And I was in awe of what I saw. A city coming to life. Light just beginning to creep in. A man pounding away at a gym on the 13th floor somewhere. A soldier stifling a yawn on the streets below. A series of bulbs going off in tall buildings, making way for the sun. The ocean glowing like a bed of jewels. A solitary bird looking for a perch. Put all of that together and I have no words to describe how beautiful it was. I should have been inspired to start writing right away. But all I did was light a cigarette, take it all in and go back to sleep. Why?
I’m honestly clueless. I’ve taken every possible drastic action possible to get her back. Trust me, I have. And still nothing. Ideas are my life. Creative ones. And minus the muse, I’m getting bored and complacent at the same time. Bored with what I’m doing now. Complacent because I can’t seem to figure out what else I could do. Under normal circumstances as much as I love advertising I could also come up with a lost of alternatives in a nanosecond too.
That’s what I need I guess. My muse. My ability to come up with a big list of things. With alternatives. With the ability to never be bored just because I conquered the mountain I wanted to. Hopefully I’ll get it all back soon and I’ll be able to make that list. 30 isn’t going to be a far away number for too long and I’m running out of time.
There. I put it all out. Hopefully things will start to improve now.
Dear Blogger,
Media Conference – Platform for Freedom
The Platform for Freedom is attempting to create a broad public coalition among civil society organizations, journalists groups, trade unions and political groups to defend the right to life and the
freedom of expression.
The PfF will hold a media conference to further explain these goals and to draw attention to other events including the abduction of Professor Dhammika Ganganath, the abduction and arrest of Sudar Oli Editor N Vithyatharan and the situation of civilians trapped in the warzone.
Date : 2009 March 19th (Thursday)
Time : 10.00 a.m.
Location : Centre for Society and Religion
281, Deans Road, Colombo 10
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Attendees : Prof Jayantha Senevirathne
Prof Dhammika Ganganath Dissanayake
Dr Nimalka Fernando
Dharmasiri Bandaranayake
Sunil Jayasekara
Britto Fernando
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Thank you,
On behalf of the PfF
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Attorney J C Weliamuna
Attorney Sudarshana Gunawardana
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haha i just remembered the time in friends where they were all turning 30. and the things they wanted to do before they were 30. and phoebee was already 31. and she didnt know it 😛
Ok here’s the deal… Lets all go to a bar, and act out a certain musical, with you taking center stage… It worked for someone else we know… 😉
Sigh…I’ll be forty in precisely two days and I’m still trying to figure out alternatives! but as you have enough time,relatively speaking, do try harder than folks like us!
@ Sanjaya – I’ll try my very best to be there
@ Ahamed – just remembered that episode! At least I can rest safe in the knowledge that I haven’t passed 30 yet and have a little time left eh?
@ Absent – moka? About 3 possible scenarios have now popped into my head. Shall call you for clarification.
@ Indyana – Happy birthday in advance and thank you. I guess you’re never too old or young to try and figure it out.
Getting old is a bitch I know.
I’ll be hitting 30 in a couple of years too. And come to think of it, I too don’t have much that I wish to do(or achieve in this case) bar one thing but pretty sure that one thing is not going to happen.
I always wondered why we get all the things we don’t need and never get the very few things we so much desire…
Just hang in there, you might find a purpose to your life…
*hugs*
aaah yes, 30, I remember those days, well almost!