How can I say goodbye?

when you leave I will die

the last few embers of life that I have been clinging onto

will be stomped out 

by me

right after I try to not shout or scream

and throw myself at your feet

and cry as loud as you have

every minute of every hour of the last few days

and for some strange reason, 

I was thinking of the weather

These rains seem so unpredictable

like the people we have invited into our hearts, you and I

you are the thing that has kept me from running wild

running insane even

and you are the one running away now

how can I hold you back when your dreams have died

mine died and I wanted to die with them

instead I kept those little embers burning

because I knew someone out there loved me

and I knew I had you

to call up at 3 am

and just collapse in your arms

who will I  run to now?

and is that even relevant anymore

who will you run to?

when you run away

to a place we can’t follow

and when you get there 

you will die

kill yourself

for once the soul dies,

the pain dies with it

simple, clean death

the release from pain

and you’re think you will find it

in a death you will commit

in a place where I can’t stop you

 

If I ever see your face again 

on some forgotten street

and by chance if we meet

will you know me

and more to the point,

will I know you?

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